Lost Again. 

Lost Again. 

Image from a Google.com search for ghosts are demons which lead to http://www.spectralintelligencesolutions.com 

Today’s Daily Prompt Word is Ghost and once again, I am lost on how to write about this word. I used to have a huge draw towards ghosts and the paranormal. I still enjoy things that are unexplained, but for me, ghosts are explained. 

In my honest, not highly educated on the subject, opinion, ghosts are demonic presences (Stacy, is presences a word?). God created this world and Satan really wants control of it. When a person says they have seen a ghost, for me, 99.9% of the time I can honestly say I believe it to be a demonic presence that is manifesting in the known world. 

Our world is full of things we know. Our world is full of the things we don’t know. And when we are truly honest with ourselves, we must admit there are things in this world, in our daily lives, that we don’t even know that we don’t know. Spirituality and how things really occur in God’s eyes is in this area. We believe in what we don’t see and we call it faith. 

We try to explain things so we can understand, but the truth is, we will never full understand every single morsel of everything this universe (or multiverse if you prescribe to that camp) has to offer. Ever. Only The creator can know all that and He chooses what to allow our human brains to conceive. 

All of the scientific and spiritual breakthroughs of the past few centuries were no mistake. And they were not out of God’s thoughts. There are things we currently know. There are things we currently don’t know. And, like I said, there are things we don’t know that we don’t know. 

I have changed a lot in my Christian Journey and if I am honest, I am not fully there yet. I still fail daily. Until I am so wrapped up in a relationship with Jesus Christ that nothing else matters except what He will have me do in this world, I am still learning. But, one thing I can tell you that He has taught me, ghosts are nothing more than demons Satan brings to entice us into a lower world where everything looks fun, sometimes scary, but we are enticed nonetheless. When we see something we really want to look into, we must ask ourselves, ‘Is this really something God wants for me? Or will it make me a ghost of my former better self?’ Satans demise will often be wrapped up in our greatest wants and desires and it is nothing more than a ghostly trap set to enslave us. Be careful of the ghosts in life, my friends. They can often trap you in a Devil’s Grasp. 

From My Corner To Yours.

From My Corner To Yours.

Your life without a computer: what does it look like?

We live in a media-saturated world. These days you’d be hard pressed to find anyone under the age of 20 who isn’t strapped into a cell phone, or iPod, iPad or MP3 player. Verbal communication has given way to text-only. Hardly anyone ever speaks on the phone any longer because now it is a computer. I am guilty as charged, your honor. It wasn’t always this way. The definition of progress has meant a chasm of growth in separation. 

I am part of the odd generation. We remember a time when all we had was Oregon Trail on our Apple IIe during computer class in the early-80’s. We were in school, and most of us even graduated high school, or God-forbid college, without the internet!! Say it ain’t so!!! It’s true young ones. The Internet didn’t really rage on to the scene until the mid-90’s!! 

My life without a computer, in its simplest terms, looks a lot like my childhood and how I wish I could live my life now. If you ask my wife she will say I am flat out lying, but even husbands have these secret places of desires of living out in the wilderness they never tell their wives about. It is engrained in our nature. Well, it was. Now we have a generation of entitled people who want everything handed to them. 

Life without computers for them? Ha!! They wouldn’t have a clue how to research a library, possibly keep a checkbook and again, God-forbid, one day will not know how to go to a store and pick out an item they see on the shelf. They won’t know how to write. They won’t know how to communicate without a keyboard or a screen. Progress???!!! Ha! Not to me!! 

Lately I have been on a serious kick, I mean almost an obsession, with survivalist shows. Man vs. Wild, Dual Survival, Survival School, life in Alaska I have watched all these shows over the past few months! It’s almost like God is preparing me to live that way, even as a disabled male. A fellow blogger friend said don’t count us disabled people out just because we are disabled. We can even do the hard stuff. 

I feel a pull within my soul to go hardcore!! And that may even mean writing journals by hand. That’s how they used to do it. Lewis And Clark, (you young kids reading this can Google them in a minute), they WALKED shore to shore of the oceans here in America over 200 years ago!! And other countries? They have histories even richer and broader than that! I am talking thousands of years!!! And in today’s world, we sit on our phones (if we can still call them that) and we have the entire internet in the palm of our hand. 

You want to know the greatest thing in the universe? He holds this entire universe in the palm of His hand!! He is God. He sent His Only Son, Jesus Christ, to Earth for all of us! He sent the ideas for technology to human beings to create. Imagine a world where one of them said, ‘Nope! I will not create this technology! We will not advance!’ We would all still be writing by hand waiting weeks to receive a letter from family. We would all be so distant from one another. Technology has brought us closer than ever before and we have allowed it to tear us apart. 

I have so many things that I wish to share with the world. I want to document when I first make a fire without the use of a match or lighter. I want to live off the land and share it with the world. I want to experience a life where my computer/phone is not accessed. But I also want the technology available to come back and write to all of you from the viewpoint of a disabled male born with Spina Bifida and say, ‘I did it, so there is no reason you can’t!’ Get out and live life, but share it! Life without computers? Sure. I could do it. But I also like being able to reach the world from my own little corner of it. 

The Waiting Is The Hardest Part.

The Waiting Is The Hardest Part.

What bores you?

I asked my wife and a mutual friend of ours this morning, ‘what do I find boring?’ My wife responded gardening. It’s true, gardening is not really my forte. But if you have read any other posts in my blog you know this blog is not about me. And, in truth, I can make almost anything non-boring. Ever since Jesus Christ has entered my spirit and begun a change within me I see the beauty in what most people would consider quite ordinary things. 

So, I turned to the Internet. And immediately my searched yielded the 50 most boring things list!! Number 3 on that list was ‘waiting’, so let’s talk about it. We all hate to wait these days. There’s even songs about waiting being the hardest part!! 

Instant gratification. Where did this come from? It used to be Good things come to those who wait. When you wait upon The Lord He shall renew your strength and you can mount on wings like eagles. And yet, we hate to wait. 

We wait in line. We wait for things we order. We wait for vacation time. We wait to see results. We wait for appointments. We live in a world that tells us GO, GO, GO and we are forced to wait. 

I assure you it is time to slow down and not be bored with waiting. It is in those still, quiet moments that the voice of The Lord can whisper to you and give you a new appreciation for what is going on around you. Don’t be afraid of the wait. Growth takes waiting. A mighty oak does not send its roots deep into the soil and its branches high into the sky without waiting. Waiting can be painful, but without both there is no growth. 

Be still and know today. Wait. It may be boring, but it can yield some great results in the process. 

Actions And Consequences.

Actions And Consequences.

If you could return to the past to relive a part of your life, either to experience the wonderful bits again, or to do something over, which part of you life would you return to? Why?

I truly wonder if people realize what they are doing when they ponder things such as this. It is a waste of time and energy. You change one moment you change the whole story. 

No matter what moment you choose you are changing your perspective of it. You cannot erase the memories of things that have happened in the future of going back to the past, do you understand that? Your experiences all go with you in your mind. However, you go back and change one thing, you now change the entire story. And there is no way to tell from the past what parts will be changed. 

When Marty McFly went back to 1955 and accidentally met his parents and almost had his mom fall in love with him, not only was that the most Freudian thing ever on film in my memory, but it was in his parents memory and they became these hip, rich, book-writing parents. Ahhhh, the dream! 

Marty had no way of knowing that he would create that kind of reality. And that is what we have at this moment! We have no clue of where our story is going, and that’s kind of awesome! It’s freeing. But each step will impact the next! 

In 2008 I accepted my first, real, ‘I think this is a career!’ Position. I was wrong, but I wouldn’t have known if I hadn’t tried. And God forbid I wouldn’t have met my wife without every opportunity from then until now falling out from underneath me for a variety of reasons. Some my fault, my choice, some not. 

If I could change any of those opportunities do you honestly believe I would? NO WAY!!! A life without my wife at this current moment is not a life I would want to experience! Period. 

So, what if I was to just go back to that ‘I can make this a career’ position and I actually excel? What if I was to rock that thing out and still be there today eight years later?? Well, that means no photography for The Science Museum of Minnesota, that means no Research Caller for two different companies and being promoted to Traffic Director of five major magazine publications for wealth managers, that means no experience as a collections agent, and most importantly that means no move back to West-Central Minnesota to work for WALMART and that means I would have never met my wife– ABSOLUTELY UNACCEPTABLE!!! NO!! 

We live in a world of ‘If Only’. We need to live in a world that understands consequences. Nobody seems to think ahead any longer and realize that every action you take takes you toward somethinng, but it also takes you away from something else. Action/reaction people.

Before you move ahead, know where you want to go and be willing to accept the challenges that arise. We don’t really need to discuss going back because, well, you can’t. Live to move forward and live for purpose. I Make Positive Actions Come True and you will I.M.P.A.C.T. All of your tomorrows and not worry about the past. 

Never Alone.

Never Alone.

Tell us about a time when you were left on your own, to fend for yourself in an overwhelming situation — on the job, at home, at school. What was the outcome?

Last week I told you about the circumstances that prompted my move to The Twin Cities in 2002 to pursue a degree in Radio Broadcasting and ultimately a degree in Communication Studies. My game plan after the Bachelors program in Communication Studies was to work in radio for a few years getting experience and then come back to Brown College and teach in the broadcasting program. My life, at least for the last 21 years has been woven together as absolute proof to me that there are no accidents and there is no such thing as a wrong decision that cannot be turned into something good. And we are never alone on our journey in this life. Ever! 

I graduated my bachelor program and I needed a full-time, well paying gig to pay my bills and college loans. Radio broadcasting was not it, so I left. I became the first disabled DJ in the history of a company in St Paul, which boasted being the best company in the country for weddings. And they truly are! This company has its formula down for weddings. And they only do weddings. I worked a few shows for them over the next few months, but ultimately since I couldn’t move my own equipment being in a wheelchair and nobody wanted to be a set-up man, we decided together that it was not a fit for me. 

Luckily, I was working for a company that monitored alarm systems all around the country. That gig began in 2005, just after I graduated college and two weeks befor Hurrican Katrina hit the gulf coast! Talk about a time to begin learning a new skill!! Definitely a sink or swim. Pages on pages of alarm systems going haywire because of the power outages and devastation. Eight hours a day of calling home owners and business owners, ‘Your alarm at <their address> is going off, is everything okay, do I need to dispatch authorities?’ Nine times out of ten it was fine. I rose to the occasion at that job and stayed there for two and a half years. 

Then, I got the call in late 2007 from a previous professor and trusted friend at Brown College, ‘hey, there are holding a group interview for an admissions rep and I think you’d be a shoe in! You got this, but you have to be here by 5:30 tonight!!’ Okay, done! I went into that interview and nailed it!! Four other people in the interview and I commanded the room! My future boss even told me, ‘you came into the room and basically said, ‘okay, everyone shut up! I am here and I got this, so you all can just leave!’  And yet it took them three weeks to offer me the job. That was God trying to orchestrate patience. 

Move ahead to April 21, 2009. It was a Tuesday. 11:30am rolls around. I had been in my office for four and a half hours. I was about to go on my lunch. I had spent the morning sending emails and making phone calls. I had four meet and greet appointments scheduled, but it was too little too late. 

My Director Of Admissions stopped at my office door and said, ‘When you finish that call come down to my office.’ Her office was three doors down the hall from mine. Longest trek ever because we were a for-profit school. Admissions Reps only keep their jobs if they can keep the enrollments. My enrollments had slipped for a couple months at that point. 

I rolled into her office. She was at her desk, tears in her eyes and the compliance/HR Director was seated on the other side of her desk. I knew what that meant. Only one thing left to ask, ‘how much time do I have to clean out my office?’ I took the rest of the day to say good-bye to the people I had considered had become family. Literally the rest of the day! 

My greatest accomplishments in life had taken place at Brown College and April 21, 2009 was my worst at the time and for the next year and a half. I went from a rising star who seemed like he could walk on water, truly, there were times in that job I worked miracles to get people enrolled in school. But, in the end it wasn’t enough. God directs all my paths! 

For the next year and a half my life in The Twin Cities crumbled beneath my wheels and there was no recovery. I was sunk! I completed and was released from one job in the next 18 months and I walked out on three others. Again, I had no clue at the time, but God was orchestrating a bigger plan I could not see at the time. 

The final break happened November 6th of 2010. I had been working for a company as a lead generation specialist. I would call IT Directors and find out if they would be interested in our software and technologies to help all organizations go paperless with any and all records. If interest was found I would pass them off to our sales team. I was so good at what I did for the first couple months, and then my body and mind decided to take a vacation. I will never forget 10:30am November 6th, my mind decided to crack and convince me I was not doing well. I told my boss I was checking myself into the hospital. She said she had noticed for a few weeks in my performance that my mind was convincing me I was slipping in my health and she agreed I needed to get checked out and talk to somebody about what was going on mentally and physically with me, but that my job would be there when I returned. It wasn’t. 

After a few days of R and R and speaking with doctors I was informed my job was no longer available. Okay, where do I go from here? No job prospects, my roommates saw my decline and decided to leave our living arrangements. Only one way to go- Home. 

We had the rent paid up through the next month, so we took through December of 2010 to move me home. I was thirty-four years old and back living with my parents. 

It didn’t take me long and I found an apartment and a part-time job in Montevideo, Minnesota at Walmart. Rock bottom. I made my mind up as a college graduate this was not going to be where I stay. I didn’t graduate Brown College Magna Kum Laude to become a cashier at Walmart. 

But, in late 2011 a woman began working at Walmart along side me. She was interested in me a few months before I caught up. February 2nd, 2012 she changed my course forever on our first date. She makes everything so much better. I am still a cashier at Walmart, but I am married to her. And I run a successful blog and I make a positive impact on the lives of countless people every single day! I am back on top again and swimming freely. I am living a life of I.M.P.A.C.T. even though I have endured many sinking moments I am still swimming strong. I hope this blog post serves as a reminder for countless people around the world that even when it seems like you are drowning you just need to swim your way back up and it will be the best breath of fresh air you have ever inhaled. I also want you to know that whether you are on top of the world or you feel like you are alone and drowning you are never alone! God has promised He will be with us in all times and all places. This story of my last seven years of life should come as a true testament to that. Even at my lowest, I was never alone. 

After Today We Turn It All Around. 

After Today We Turn It All Around. 

Today is January 5th in The United States. I know, I know, in other parts of the world it is already tomorrow, but right now, here, it is today. And as of today we have just over 360 days left in 2016. Does anyone else see that as a coincidence? 

This post is being written to serve as a reminder that at any time you can come full circle and turn things around. 360 degrees in a circle. 360 days left in 2016. So, maybe you haven’t had your 2016 get started right, or you feel it is a long journey to get where you want to go. Keep going!!! 

Maybe you feel today you are going in a wrong direction. You have 359 other degrees to choose from to create a new direction. You can always choose a new direction, whether it is January 5th of any year or December 31st. 

Hit your knees in prayer and ask God to direct your ways today and always be willing to follow His lead. He is not always going to take you where you want to go, but He will always take you where He needs you to go. Are you willing to listen and change direction? Today could be the beginning of a new journey. 

Don’t Fear The Reaper.

Don’t Fear The Reaper.

Write whatever you normally write about, and weave in a book quote, film quote, or song lyric that’s been sticking with you this week.

How would your life be different if you were incapable of feeling fear? Would your life be better or worse than it is now?

I am going to attempt both of these prompts in one post!! I have had the notion of ‘We reap what we sow’ in my head this week. Fear only creates more fear, and anger, and hate. We here in The United States are bombarded with fear every single day, and I for one, am sick and tired of this rhetoric!! 

Fear religion, fear people, fear guns, fear food, fear weather, fear driving!! And those have only come up in the past four days!!! SHUT UP!!! When did we lose sight of FDR’s famous words ‘We have nothing to fear, but fear itself!’ 

If we knew we had no fear what would we do? Anything! Fear cripples us. I am already disabled and in a wheelchair. I don’t need anything else to immobilize me. Fear has no place in my vocabulary, and yet, I suffer every single day with anxiety. God does not ever give us a spirit of fear, Satan does that. In a world where whispers can be louder than shouts we still should have nothing to fear. Satan breeds fear with his whispers in our ear and that creates a world of pain. 

Earlier this week I watched a YouTube video about the universe and the vibrations within it. Everything has a frequency vibration. Rocks, trees, animals, humans, water, molecules, buildings, everything has a vibration! We are all shaking, we are all moving! The world will tell us we are trembling with fear. Do not believe this lie! 

Whatever vibrations we put out we will receive in return. What we plant, we shall harvest. I have seen a few people who have been asking the question, ‘why me? Why does this always happen to me?’ What are you planting? Are you planting negative images in your mind? If that’s what you see, that is what you will get! 

U2 once wrote a song, I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For. We live in a world that is constantly seeking peace, love, acceptance, forgiveness. And there are those who say it can be found in Jesus Christ. And then they turn around and condemn the ones who need these things. If we don’t fully turn to The Cross of redemption and grace we never will find what we are looking for. We will never find it in humanity that only seeks for itself preservation. There is no fear or condemnation in Christ Jesus. You want to know how all of our lives would be different without fear? Seek Him. Seek The Prince Of Peace and you shall have no fear.