Dear Future Me

Dear Future Me

I have been putting off this part of the Daily Post Prompt for a couple days now. I hope you all have read my letter to my 14 year old self. Tonight, we are to write a letter that is to ourself in twenty years. This is a tough one. 

I mean, twenty years. I will be 59-years old in twenty years. Where will I be? Will I still be here? Will I be making a difference? What if I am not? Why look twenty years into the future and try to guess how it will look? I learned that lesson when I was 14 and wondered where I would be today. It certainly wasn’t in the life I have. Don’t get me wrong, I have a great life! It’s just nothing at all like I planned.  

 Life has adaptations. Life has changes and road-blocks. Life even has beginnings and endings. I don’t know why the pessimistic side of me is making a guest appearance tonight after more than a year of blogging, but here he is!! 

Tonight, as I write this a million thoughts keep popping into my head. Why look so far in the future? What if my future ends tonight or in the next year? Why worry about any of it when all we have is now? 

Jeremiah 29:11 says, “I know the plans I have for you, says The Lord. Plans to prosper you and give you hope and a future.” When you work a dead end job, no plans for any meaningful promotion and live in a body that is broken down and feels pain more than not these days, it is difficult to look twenty years in the future and think, “wow! I’m still gonna be here?” 

  Then the optimist in me comes crashing through that door and says, “hey man! Buck it up and suck it up! You have an awesome purpose that you live every single day! Sure, you are not in a job right now that is what you are worth, but hey! Your job is not where your worth is found anyway! You bring joy to so many people every day, find your worth in that!!” I like the optimist in me! He keeps it real. 

See, this morning in church one of the teenage girls spoke about her battle with anxiety and depression. Guess what? Keepin’ it real, I gotta tell ya, I battle it too! I know I live in a body that is so terribly broken that some days I wonder, ‘can I really go on like this another twenty years or God willing 50 years?’, but that’s where plans for hope and a future come in. 

We were all built for greatness! You were, I was, the babies in the womb are too! We need to let everyone find that path to greatness. 

Twenty years from now, dear self, you may be doing some great things, or you may be called home. I really don’t know what the future holds for you. But, I know that right now, at this moment, you can let the world know it is not all bad and not one of them is alone as long as you have existed and they read your words. 

Please, share this message of hope and a future with anyone you think may need it. My friends, your future may be prosperous. Your future may be full of pain and disease, or even death. But right now, right at this moment, YOU HAVE A CHANCE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!! The question is, will you? Edification or demolition? Your words, when put together with action, make a difference! 

Twenty years from now, I may be gone. I may still be here. No matter where I am, I will be making a difference and it will all be because of this one post. I love you all! ALL LIVES MATTER IN THIS MOMENT!!!! 


Moments Are The Significance Of Life.

Moments Are The Significance Of Life.

We all live in a world that is so terribly rushed to be better that we miss one of the most significant gifts we have been offered– moments. 

Once they are gone, they never return. Yet, we let them flutter by as though they have no consequence. I assure you, my friends, it is the little things that add up to the big things. It is the moments that add up to the years in our lives. We see this quite frequently in nature. 

Take a sand castle, for example. It is made up of millions of tiny grains of sand. Each grain is unique and each grain has purpose. Without one grain of sand being placed firmly together the integrity of the wall is lessened. 

The same is true of people. Our bodies are made up of millions and billions of atoms. And our lives are made up of millions of moments. Moments that we miss if we let them slip through our perceptions. Right now, as I type this, The Food Network program CHOPPED is on our television thanks to Netflix. We have four sleeping children in the house. Not a single one of them belongs to us. Yet we know that our friends who are parents sometimes need a break. So, we are watching them for a friend who needed some time away. 

My wife is ten feet away from me with a zoned out look on her face. She is finally realizing the magnitude of making decisions at a moments notice. “Sure! I’ll take the kids for a weekend!!” Will wear you out within the first few hours when you are not used to the chaos of an infant, a two year old, a five year old and an eight year old! Moment decision. Moments! Changed lives. All of ours. Forever. 

The moment she had said yes to the request was the moment, if nothing else, our weekend would never be the same. 

However, we are having fun and making wonderful memories with wonderful children. These are moments I would never give up for anything else. It is a challenge, but my wife and I are a team and we will take this moment by moment and realize they are significant not only for us, but also for the children who are in our care for two days. My only hope is we can create moments of memories that will stand through the washing of the sands of time and the castle walls will not fall from their memories. 

Make A World Of Difference!!!!

Make A World Of Difference!!!!

Today’s Daily Post says I just won $1 billion dollars. How would I spend the money?

Well, first of all, I would say, “sit down Dr. Evil, this money is mine!! Not Yours!” And then I would give 100 Million Dollars, again with my pinky turned up towards my mouth, to my church. We have an amazing capability for outreach and change in our community and even further, but 100 Million Dollars donated to my church family would literally change the world!!! None of it would be pocketed, it would all be used to further The Kingdom Of God, which is to say helping all of humanity, and the knowledge of The Gospel. And as a Christian I am called to tithe to further The Gospel of Jesus Christ. Now, this isn’t to say I won’t tithe in other ways to other Christian Organizations either. But, my home church and its outreach comes first. So, ten percent goes to them.

So, that leaves $900,000,000!!!! Hhhmmmmm…. Where to go from here? Well, first off, all debt for my family, loans, houses, cars, college loans… Gone! My family would be debt free! Let’s say, for the sake of argument, that took $3 Million. Oh boy! Still have $897 Million left!

There is a twenty acre piece of Heaven on my parents farm. My wife and I would love to build a home there. The land for 20 acres right now is probably $160,000 and then we’d have to landscape and build a suitable home. So, let’s say, $600,000 total for landscaping and building a wheelchair accessible home with 6 bedrooms, 3 bathrooms, a wrap around porch (which my wife really wants), a paved driveway, 2 out buildings, 8 acres of lawn and the land. Yup, I would say that is about right. Leaving $995,840,000 to go.

Oh dear, well, there is The Spina Bifida Association of Minnesota, a charity near and dear to my heart, $500,000,000 goes to them. Hopefully with that money they can make sure that all Spina Bifida is erased from existence. So, now we have $495,840,000 left. Forgive me if my math is wrong on this. I have severely let my math skills faulter!!!!

Starvation in the world? gone! I don’t know if it’s possible, but I would think $400,000,000 should take a huge chunk out of ANYONE going hungry if the funds are allocated correctly towards a sustainable source that feeds all people in the world.

Oh, look at that, $95,000,000 left!!! Invest $25,000,000 into a CD or Roth IRA that gets some great interest. The well will never run dry. Start an organization for kids in every single town, village and every 10 miles radius  of every major city in The U.S. No kid shall go hungry, no kid shall go without learning all the awesome things a kid should learn. Music, arts, writing, reading, love, compassion, having a family who cares about them. If a kid has a dream, this organization sees to it that it happens! We need to create dreamers in the world again.

Mr. Holland was right in 1995!!!! “Take away music and the arts, pretty soon these kids won’t have anything to read or write about!!” Welcome to the new world! Why are 80’s movies being churned out and remade into worthless pieces of unimaginative crap?! Because 20 years ago this country began saying sports was more important than band, choir, arts, writing!! CONGRATULATIONS AMERICA!!!!! You’ve created a generation, or two, who don’t know how to create something new!!!! Thanks a lot!

So, now, because of that stupidity, I have to see classics, like Footloose and Ghostbusters remade!!! But, you couldn’t stop there! Oh No! You had to make Ghostbusters politically correct! Please, do not see this as sexist bashing, but Ghostbusters does not need to be remade with women of comedy!!!

Wow! I totally got off track! See what happens when we concentrate on what is wrong in our world? Our focus veers off course and we lose sight of our goals and what is truly important!

Where was I? Oh yeah…. Anybody else need any money? With all my plans and hopefully eradicating world hunger and spinal cord injuries and no child not living their dreams and imagination potential,  I still have more than enough to survive because I was smart enough to invest it into things that will create huge returns!!!

Please, if you ever come into even a fraction of this kind of money, be smart with it and take care of people. We are here to relate and this kind of money would make a world of difference to a world of people! Yes, I am speaking to those who have this kind of money right now!!! Are you utilizing your wealth to help the world or help yourself? There are over a billion ways to help and they still leave you with plenty to survive. Are YOU making a big enough difference in the world?

Shoulda Woulda Coulda. 

Shoulda Woulda Coulda. 

Today’s Daily Prompt was to talk about something we know we should do but haven’t. Oh, where to begin on this list?


 I should pray more. The Bible says to pray without ceasing. That means every single moment of our lives should be spent with God. But, we always prioritize our lives over that. I have started a simple way of beginning each day, “Hi, God! What are we up to today?” It opens the line. God knows you are ready to speak with Him before you do, so this is more for our human side than anything, but it opens our mind to staying connected. Speaking of staying connected. 


  I should stay in touch with family better. I have five siblings. At this exact moment in time, I could only give you some details about one of them, and only two details about one of them. Which means, I have three siblings I couldn’t even begin to tell you what’s on their minds, or going on in their lives. However, the few details I have heard about through our parents, you won’t get those stories from me. Because they are not my stories to tell. Reach out to your loved ones, won’t you? You may end up surprised by what is going on in their lives. And you will stay connected to what is supposed to be the most important relationship of your life!!


  I should eat better. I am a man who loves it simple. Grill up a burger or grilled cheese, put soup in a bowl and microwave it. Microwave a pot pie or a potatoe. Yup, that’s me! Too many starches, too many sugars and my wife will tell ya, NOT ENOUGH WATER!!! I eat horrible!!! However, this is something we are meaning to change after the past couple days. My body is not reacting well at all to how I have been treating it! 

Not enough exercise, not enough water and not enough good foods!! Let me tell ya, preservatives in your body won’t make ya a mummy!! 

There is an entire list of things I should, could and would do. We could be here for days! But these are my top three. We are here for relationship with God and with others, most importantly immediate family. And to do that, we need to eat right and exercise. Our bodies were not meant to die at an early age, but many people do because of lack of good food and exercise. What is on YOUR LIST Of shoulda, coulda, woulda? 

What If?

What If?

what if within the next hour everything you have that is an earthly possession was gone? All you have left is your spouse, friends, family. Home- gone. Car- gone. Clothing except what you are wearing- gone. Food supply- gone. 

There are millions of people living in our world today in these exact scenarios or a combination thereof. We need to get back to what is important and that is helping one another. There is enough for survival of all people on this planet. Why then do so many go without? Greed. 

Instead of throwing out your left overs, take them to a friend in need. I don’t know why this message was laid on my heart, but it is simple. Ask yourself, “if in the next hour you lose everything except your life and the lives of family and friends, what would you do?” The change of life comes in an instant! God is eternal and will see you through. 

Well. I never. 

Well. I never. 

Today’s Daily Prompt is to tell about something you have done that you would advise someone else not to do. 

This will sound funny, but I haven’t done anything that I would advise someone else not to do. First of all, it’s not my place. We are all human with our own desires, thoughts and actions based on those thoughts. I am a believer in lessons learned. Every single mistake I have ever made, and yes, I have made mistakes, has lead me to a place of awesomeness. Every single decision of my life has lead me to having a college degree, working for Walmart and a blossoming radio station and being married to my best friend. Why would I want to change that by taking away any single decision or mistake? 

For example, it was a mental breakdown due to an addictive personality and perfectionist mindset that lead me to even living in Montevideo. Take away that event of hospitalization and my parents moving me home to get back on my feet and any of the life I am living right now would cease to be. That is unacceptable. 

Today, I am home sick again with a body that does not work. I have no idea why I can’t get this body to do what I want, but that is how it is. Take that away and yeah, I would be at work making money, but who’s to say that my being home sick today won’t set in motion events that will lead to something awesome happening? If I was able to be at work, I wouldn’t be home writing this post. And there may be one or a thousand people who will be blessed by it. 

On the flip side, who’s to say that my being home sick today won’t result in missing out on an opportunity, or possibly many opportunities to bless another’s life? Hopefully, this post is a blessing to you today. 

So, my advise is not to do anything that I have done, but live your life. All its ups and downs, wellness and sickness, riches and times of little, they all add up to a really great life if you let them. And everybody’s journey is different. We need to quit the comparing of lives and just live and let live. He who began a great work in us will see it through to completion. 

We need to stop being afraid of failure. We need to stop being afraid of aging and breaking down. I felt today coming a couple days ago while I was mowing at Aunt Betsy’s Bed And Breakfast. I fell out of my chair when I hit a pot hole while pulling some weeds. Even with my father’s help it was a struggle to get back up into my wheelchair. 

Our bodies are not eternal, but our souls are! Stop comparing your journey to someone else’s. Be you because there are no second chances for another you ever. Make mistakes, fall on your face, fail. But get back up! And keep going… 


The Journey.  

The Journey.  

Too many people want to reach the end of the journey. I know, I am guilty of it too. We all want the perfect career, with the perfect income, so we can leave the perfect career and live the perfect retirement life. 

No journey ever works like that! Ever. If you are in Minnesota, you can’t get to California by not traveling there. You can’t just think your way to somewhere else. 

So, enjoy the journey. Laugh at the mistakes. Learn from the failed attempts. And if you keep moving on, you will get where you are trying to arrive. 

I must mention it is also okay to take a break and walk away to a new journey or new perspective as well, go your separate ways.  Led Zeplin said, “there’s still time to change the road you’re on.” You can have this life any way you want it, even if you need to stay at hotel California, because if you can be good to yourself and go through the journey faithfully and don’t stop believin’ it will all work out to where you are meant to be.