I have been putting off this part of the Daily Post Prompt for a couple days now. I hope you all have read my letter to my 14 year old self. Tonight, we are to write a letter that is to ourself in twenty years. This is a tough one.
I mean, twenty years. I will be 59-years old in twenty years. Where will I be? Will I still be here? Will I be making a difference? What if I am not? Why look twenty years into the future and try to guess how it will look? I learned that lesson when I was 14 and wondered where I would be today. It certainly wasn’t in the life I have. Don’t get me wrong, I have a great life! It’s just nothing at all like I planned.
Life has adaptations. Life has changes and road-blocks. Life even has beginnings and endings. I don’t know why the pessimistic side of me is making a guest appearance tonight after more than a year of blogging, but here he is!!
Tonight, as I write this a million thoughts keep popping into my head. Why look so far in the future? What if my future ends tonight or in the next year? Why worry about any of it when all we have is now?
Jeremiah 29:11 says, “I know the plans I have for you, says The Lord. Plans to prosper you and give you hope and a future.” When you work a dead end job, no plans for any meaningful promotion and live in a body that is broken down and feels pain more than not these days, it is difficult to look twenty years in the future and think, “wow! I’m still gonna be here?”
Then the optimist in me comes crashing through that door and says, “hey man! Buck it up and suck it up! You have an awesome purpose that you live every single day! Sure, you are not in a job right now that is what you are worth, but hey! Your job is not where your worth is found anyway! You bring joy to so many people every day, find your worth in that!!” I like the optimist in me! He keeps it real.
See, this morning in church one of the teenage girls spoke about her battle with anxiety and depression. Guess what? Keepin’ it real, I gotta tell ya, I battle it too! I know I live in a body that is so terribly broken that some days I wonder, ‘can I really go on like this another twenty years or God willing 50 years?’, but that’s where plans for hope and a future come in.
We were all built for greatness! You were, I was, the babies in the womb are too! We need to let everyone find that path to greatness.
Twenty years from now, dear self, you may be doing some great things, or you may be called home. I really don’t know what the future holds for you. But, I know that right now, at this moment, you can let the world know it is not all bad and not one of them is alone as long as you have existed and they read your words.
Please, share this message of hope and a future with anyone you think may need it. My friends, your future may be prosperous. Your future may be full of pain and disease, or even death. But right now, right at this moment, YOU HAVE A CHANCE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!! The question is, will you? Edification or demolition? Your words, when put together with action, make a difference!
Twenty years from now, I may be gone. I may still be here. No matter where I am, I will be making a difference and it will all be because of this one post. I love you all! ALL LIVES MATTER IN THIS MOMENT!!!!